Sunday, October 31, 2010

The Most Attractive Thing I've Ever Seen

  This might possibly be the most attractive thing I've ever seen...
Reminds me of this.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

My What Big Eyes You Have

All the better to see you with my dear!

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Her World

She is my collector, explorer, and creator.

She plays really well on her own...this is a huge blessing right now since Emmy demands so much of our time.
The backyard is her little world.

A part of me cringes every time she tears a hole in her pants, loses her bow, or has sidewalk chalk all over her shirt. But deep down I know that the dirt is worth it and that I can find more clearance pants at Target.

Because she is happy.
A nest. Obviously.
Well used supplies.
Another nest. Obviously. Must be a 4 bedroom. 
Can't wait to see what she comes up with next.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Little Minds

I think one of the greatest perks of motherhood is seeing and hearing all the funny workings of my kids' little minds. I love this note Jansen wrote to Nate...
"Do you have a rock collection Dad I love you a big amount 10000000 percent loving"

And this line of stuff starting in the hall and leading into his room. A birthday present for his dad was at the end of the trail.
But he didn't want Nate to have it before his birthday, so he made a wall.
And Natalie. Who wouldn't want to join this raucous bunch on their joyride?

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Emmy Hippo

Don't even ask why or how my mother came across this picture and then emailed it to me. And don't you even dare comment on the striking similarities between my daughter and a hippo.

By the way, she's already a month old!

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Happy Birthday to Him

who is always carrying more than his fair share of the load at home, work, church, and on hikes. :)
Always with a smile...never complaining.
We love you.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Thursday Night Lights

Thursday nights = Soccer

Our stake has organized a soccer league for the Primary children. It's such a brilliant idea and has been so successful out here. Games/practices are on Thursday nights and Vegas weather allows for us to play into November even with games at 7:00. I have really enjoyed watching Jansen goof off play and chatting with the other moms.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Remembering Noah

All day I have been thinking of our precious little boy Noah. It has been one year.

It's been a busy day though...I haven't had much time to really sit down and think and pray and remember like I have wanted to. Our Emmy has been quite fussy lately, but words cannot express how we treasure her and are beyond blessed to have a beautiful baby in our home only a year after we lost Noah. I am cherishing her. Now that I do have a moment to reminisce I am remembering... not many hours after I delivered Noah I had already received a sweet email from a sister in the ward with meals and babysitting all set up

...feeling the genuine love and concern of friends who were far away and were hurting with me

...the special outfit Nate made for Noah

...the beautiful memory of the sun bursting through the clouds during Noah's service many acts of kindness from so many people close I felt to Noah throughout the whole pregnancy. I had mentioned to several people from the start that out of all my pregnancies, for some reason I felt the most spiritually connected to this baby. we decided on the name Noah even though we had never even considered it for our boy. It means rest and comfort. much we grew and learned in such a short period of time from this trial.
When we moved to Ohio we happened to live right next door to a wonderful woman named Karen who was a member of our church. She has blessed our lives from the first day we met her and continues to do so to this day. She goes to Noah's grave site periodically for us and she was there today and took this picture. That meant the world to me. It's hard to be so far away and not be able to go ourselves, but it warms my heart that someone cares enough to do it for us. She emailed me this picture today:

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

How It's Going Now

Well, at the moment, it's going.

This post is more of a journal entry, since recording these things is important and valuable to me. Tonight being a parent is hard. Very hard. Natalie is in her room coughing...which means lots of waking up tonight from her. Jansen is just now calming down from an unprecedented tantrum/scream fest. Moments ago I heard him mutter, "I don't love her at all." He's talking about me...and although I KNOW he doesn't mean it, the stress of the night culminated and I burst into tears. Nate left with little Emmy who has shown us her fussy side the past few days. Hours of unsuccessfully trying to console her tonight got her shipped off the Lowe's with dad for a little bit (his idea). Dinner was some conglomeration of PB sandwiches, pizza, and other leftovers. Family Home Evening was a riot because it was just so crazy. Our opening song was three versions of songs about Natalie's favorite pretend dog Amigo.

I am spent and tired and wanting to fast forward a few months. But that's silly because life will always be hard.

I keep thinking of the phrase "I can do hard things"...a motto that was written on a plate Elaine S. Dalton had in her home. She said if she could change the motto it would read: “In the strength of the Lord, I can do all things.” I believe that. I believe I can do hard things. But I'm sure going to be praying a lot and needing the strength of the Lord. Really hard nights will pass. Even harder ones will come along. And surely sometime in my future there will be an evening spent on a beach sipping a smoothie and oh how I will appreciate it then!

Time to go to sleep. Well, sleep doesn't really exist around here right now. Time to try anyway.

Friday, October 1, 2010

Favorite Things About Sister

Natalie's favorite thing about her two week old sister?
"Holding her."

Jansen's favorite thing?
"That's she's a girl. Because I love you and Natalie a lot."

One of my favorite things?
The noises she makes. Some of them make me laugh out loud. Such silly sounds from such a little girl.