Saturday, October 31, 2009
Friday, October 30, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Okay...there's one perk. I've only come up with one so far.
They come visit you! I get that heart-bursting, smile widening, silly stomach feeling when family comes to see us. It's marked on my calendar from the moment I know the date and once I even cleaned my fridge in preparation for the event. Those were a nice 3 days when my fridge was clean. I miss that...almost as much as I miss all our family.
Missing all of you! Come visit again soon!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Look how sweet this is. Nate is protectively hovering over Natalie AS SHE BRANDISHES A WEAPON! Neither of us are all that sure how she got that in her hand without us noticing, but be assured it was a short lived rendezvous with the knife.
A few minutes later as we are still working on our pumpkins (I was talking on the phone) I hear Nate talking to Jansen about NEVER, EVER lighting things on fire and how dangerous "that" was. He had lit the tip of a Sharpie on fire. There are still black marks on Jansen's pumpkin where he had tried to extinguish it.
The night is declared a raging success as we finished it off with pumpkin pie shakes.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
2. A father’s place is to preside, provide,
3. A mother’s purpose is to care, prepare,
4. I’ll love and serve my family and be
What a cool song.
Yes, it rained. Yes, it was cold. BUT YES, they sell hot chocolate and warm pretzels so things worked out. Monica and I stole these garbage bag liners from some stadium garbage cans and they were perfect ponchos! (Okay...I got them at Wal-Mart. But if you want to pretend they are garbage bags you can, it's funnier.)
To end the day we attended a Halloween party. I have yet to figure out how to put together a Halloween costume without spending more money than I want to, so we borrowed these rockin' costumes from the Palmers. They looked so good the year they wore them that we pretty much copied them.Cannot pull off the serious faces. I had to run to the grocery the store that night to get nail polish remover to take off my black nail polish (I know black nails are trendy...but I cannot pull that off either) and it felt so weird to be stared at constantly. I tried to smile a lot so people would know it wasn't the "real" me. Cuz a real gothic would never smile at someone at the grocery store right?
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
To recommend a good book:
When you need a good squeeze:
Just want all the girls and girlfriends in my life, past and present, to know how much I love you!
Friday, October 16, 2009
1. When Natalie turns and sees that I have the camera and she inserts the phrase, "Time to say cheese," right in the middle of her song.
2. In the background when Jansen uses his new phrase, "I don't believe!" Not on this video, but even more entertaining, is when he says, "I believe!" when I tell him something he likes or is excited about. I don't know where he got that, but I'm loving it.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Sometimes he will be staring off into space and I will ask him what he's thinking about.
"I'm just thinking about trains."
Every preschool paper he brings home has a train drawn on the back. I love it.
He's so lucky he has such a weird wife.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Our wonderful and supportive bishop then dedicated the grave and we placed flowers on the tiny casket. There was a beautiful moment during the service when the sun broke through the clouds...it was really neat. Jansen and Natalie were a handful, but as our bishop's wife pointed out, that's life in a family and our young kids are simply full of personality and spirit and we wouldn't have it any other way.
We took a walk through the cemetery with the kids after finishing the service and had a wonderful time being together as a family. Life is beautiful and we are blessed. Thank you, thank you from a place deep in our hearts for all your prayers, service, support and love. We have certainly felt it and have been buoyed up by it. Thank you, Monica, for taking such special pictures for us that day. There is a little video I put together at the bottom of the blog that kind of goes through the whole morning.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Nate didn't know I was taking this picture, but I knew I wanted to remember this moment. I had gone out shopping earlier trying to find a teeny something for Noah to wear when we bury him. Of course, I was unsuccessful. My ever-amazing husband decided to make something. Please keep in mind neither of us sew AT ALL. Like AT ALL. He sat down and got out the manual and stayed up till 2 in the morning making a precious little gown from one of Jansen's old baby blankets. I think it's beautiful. We took it to the mortuary today so they could put Noah in it. We also brought a family picture and a white blanket that Jansen and Natalie were blessed in for them to include in the casket. I am so thankful for such an incredible and faithful spouse at this time.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
This blog has always been a way for me to record our life and to share things, big and small, with people that we love. This is certainly a more serious and difficult post to write, but definitely an important one and also an opportunity to say that I certainly feel loved at this time...by my Heavenly Father, family, and friends. I am completely overwhelmed by the kind, loving, and thoughtful people that I have in my life.
Last Thursday I got back from a 3 week stay in Utah with family. Nate had been doing another away rotation, this one at Nellis Air Force Base in Las Vegas during that time. My last few days in Utah I had become concerned because I hadn't been feeling the baby move. I was coming up on 25 weeks, and it was somewhat early on in the pregnancy to be feeling consistent movement so I wasn't overly worried, but it definitely weighed on my mind. I prayed hard one day to just feel one really good kick so I could know things were okay, but just never felt anything I KNEW was the baby. I arrived home in Ohio fine and had an absolutely wonderful weekend with Kami (who had flown home with me) watching General Conference and shopping and eating and making things. Nate came home that weekend too...finally finished with those two away rotations. Kami left on Sunday afternoon, and Sunday evening things really kind of fell apart for me emotionally. Nate was putting the kids to bed and I just laid on the floor downstairs and tried so hard to feel the baby. I told Nate that I was really getting worried and we spent a good part of that night crying, praying, trying to feel the baby, holding each other, etc. I did call my doctor that night but she told me movement at that stage in pregnancy is really unreliable and that things were probably just fine and to just come in the next morning for my scheduled appointment. Although it turned out things were NOT fine, I was actually grateful for her words because I slept well that night and was not beside myself with worry.
At my appointment the next morning she was unable to find a heartbeat and unable to see one on an ultrasound. We came to the hospital a couple hours later and began the long process of getting ready to give birth to our little guy. After hours and hours of waiting for my body to be more ready to have the baby, he was delivered around 2:30 am. There was period of time right before he was born that things were a little hectic...the anesthesiologist was having a difficult time placing the epidural and then it was kinked...and this is all happening basically as I am feeling the extreme urge to push. I delivered him quickly after those painful moments, so no epidural for the actual birth but it kicked in soon after. NOT what I had planned on, but it's over now thank goodness. We really switched gears in our minds as we chose a name and have decided on Noah Roy Nye. We chose Noah because of its meaning, which is comfort, rest, and peace. Roy is Nate's paternal grandfather who Nate has always greatly loved and respected. We both held our little 13 inch, 1 1/2 lb boy for a few minutes.
Nate and I have always had everything a couple could ask for in the years we have been married and continue to feel so blessed even during hard times like this. I loved watching the video I posted above during my stay at the hospital because so many of you have been showing the love that President Monson talks about and I hope over the years we can do the same for you and others we come in contact with.