Thursday, October 8, 2009

Noah's Dad

I absolutely cannot decide what to blog about and what not to blog about when it comes to Noah. I am a frequent blogger at heart and like expressing some of my feelings here, but I don't know what is appropriate and I don't want to over do it (for lack of a better way of explaining it) or sound trite. I guess that is the beauty of it, I get to decide. I know there are people who read this that will treasure some of these things I share and that is reason enough for me.

Nate didn't know I was taking this picture, but I knew I wanted to remember this moment. I had gone out shopping earlier trying to find a teeny something for Noah to wear when we bury him. Of course, I was unsuccessful. My ever-amazing husband decided to make something. Please keep in mind neither of us sew AT ALL. Like AT ALL. He sat down and got out the manual and stayed up till 2 in the morning making a precious little gown from one of Jansen's old baby blankets. I think it's beautiful. We took it to the mortuary today so they could put Noah in it. We also brought a family picture and a white blanket that Jansen and Natalie were blessed in for them to include in the casket. I am so thankful for such an incredible and faithful spouse at this time.



34 comments:

Kami said...
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Kami said...

This is the sweetest story Jess. Thanks for sharing it. I just can't believe Nate! He's amazing. Oh man, I honestly don't think I'll ever get married unless I can find another Nate out there.

travis said...

Jessie and Nate. I wanted you to know that I am so sorry for your loss. You are an amazing family. The little gown was so precious. You will be in my thoughts and prayers all weekend.
Love Aunt Travis (Bug) Stewart

Leah Young said...

Beautiful. You have an amazing husband. Tears, tears.

Anonymous said...

I just love that guy. Really. What a comfort for a worried mom to know you two have each other.

Don Pectol said...

Jessica Sweetheart, Thanks so much for sharing this tender moment in your life. It is a treasure to me. I love you and your family so much. I have prayed for you so much also.
I am so grateful to you and Nate for your example. What wonderful parents you are.
I love you,
Uncle Don

Anonymous said...

Dear Jessie,
What a blessing you and Nate are in our family. Thanks for your light, it brightens our lives and we need it so much.
As I visited with Nate the last time we were in Ohio all I could think of was what an amazing Family Physican he will be. Many families will be blessed to have him part of their lives. Our's sure have.
Love, Your proud and grateful Aunt Robin

Ashley M said...

What a handsome little outfit for your little man. You have been on my mind and in my heart for the last couple of days. Noah is so lucky to be a part of a family with so much love. I am praying for you and all of your family. Give hugs to the kiddos for us!

megandjon said...

this is going to be long, but i feel impressed to share it. have i ever told you about my first really strong impression about Nate? that first year when mom and steve got married and we all lived together ('cept emily)and got to know eachother was pretty crazy but i have a very vivid memory of this one time when Nate and I ran an errand to the grocery store.we needed a few things and i was in "the mode", trying to find them, fast, you know "the mode". but i began to notice that nate kept finding people to help. people i hadn't even seen. some little short lady trying to reach something high, some old man trying to get his cart to roll over a bump in the floor, and ultimately another old lady trying to find her car in the parking lot. i remember just standing there, flabbergasted that i hadn't SEEN any of these people, and amazed at Nate's loving, helping spirit. He probably doesn't remember any of this! But I remember it often and even used it as an example in a lesson on charity that I gave my mia maids a couple of weeks ago. You can't really do charity and service unless you look around and truly SEE (and love) the people around you. that's what Nate taught me when he was only 16 and I was 20!

anyhoo, you got a good man there! and also, i didn't know a sewing machine manual could help you do that! he didn't even have a pattern. amazing! and so so wonderful and touching, the things you are putting in the casket.

Shane's Angie said...

I understand your reluctancy in sharing some of your precious moments, but let me tell you that this was definitely one that I appreciated you sharing. I have no doubt that sweet little Noah is very, very grateful for such a loving dad who was willing to create something so beautiful just for him. I am not surprised at Nate's actions, because I know the calibur of man that he is. What a beautiful tribute to him and his calling as a father. Jess, you never cease to amaze me. I'm so happy to be your Lolly :)

Kara said...

This was the perfect thing to blog. Nate is the greatest EVER!

cheeks said...

I have to say that I'm not surprised by Nate! I can't say that I really KNOW you guys that well, but I can say that when I met Nate for the first time (he came over to introduce himself because he'd be working with Brett for a calling??) he was so so nice and genuinely interested in us and what was going on in our lives. I was so impressed by how nice and thoughtful he was. You have such a great hubby! I'm glad he's taking such good care of you. The gown for little Noah is beautiful.
-Jami

kiki comin said...

every story i hear of nate, they make me smile (some times they make me laugh really hard too), but this time especially made me smile. so glad you are sharing some of your moments. good luck tommorrow.love ya.

Adespain said...

so sweet and so cute. what a sweet sweet husband you have. we'll keep you in our prayers.

Kent and Leisy said...

I laughed- and then cried- when I read this- is that inappropriate? I love that he pulled out that sewing machine! such a great great guy you've got jess. Kent tried to make a sock monkey for laney for christmas our first year married- have you seen a picture of it on laney's blog? when laney opened it we all laughed so hard, we cried- including my dad. Nate obviously has FAR better sewing skills than kent.

Sarah Lunt said...

This is one of the most beautiful posts I've ever read. Thanks for sharing it. Much love and prayers going up for your family!

Jan said...

Jess, I haven't read your blog in a few weeks and I am so suprised and saddened by the news of your sweet little Noah. I am not surprised that your testimony and love of Heavenly Father's plan is evident. I am grateful for friends like you who remind me of things that are most important. I am so grateful that you have a wonderful, loving husband.

J & M Squared said...

You do have an amazing husband! I'm so glad the two of you have each other, and I must add that you are super amazing! Love you!

Jessi said...

That is so beautiful. and so so special.

amyandrandy said...

I am not one to cry or even tear up, but I have to tell you this made me do both. I am so touched by precious moments like these. What an incredible family you are and know that we love and miss you guys.

Joni said...

Sniff. This post was so sweet. It made me cry, thank you so much for sharing it.

stevenellie said...

I'm so sorry for your lost. tears. It sounds like Noah is bringing you and Nate closer together, though. Nate is a wonderful husband. How sweet that he sewed. My thoughts and prayers our with your family.
Love,
Ellie and Steve

Monica said...

I loved reading this post. Definitely made me teary eyed! I think that it is so beautiful and so fitting that your precious little Noah will be buried in something that was made his loving dad. What a sweet story. I also loved reading about what else you included in the casket.

Amy Pectol Oberhansley said...

I love you guys. Nate is such a good man and you are such an amazing woman It's people like you that make heavenly father happy to send down his little spirits. I hope you can feel my big huge from across the country.

The Nye's said...

Words don't describe Nate or you! Nate can do anything and he is just so genuine! We want to be like you guys! And please, post as much as possible about Noah! We love that little guy so much and want to hear anything and everything about him and what he taught you!!

Melinda said...

That is so sweet and so impressive. I'm glad you shared this, Jessica. Made me teary too.

TravisandTaryn Barrett said...

You guys are both amazing. Noah picked the best parents to give him a body and to be with for eternity. You will continue to be in our prayers and be an inspiration to us. Hang in there.

Traci said...

Thanks Jessie and Nate for sharing this moment in your lives with us, you both have added to my testimony of eternal families and the duties of a parent. May our Father in Heaven continue to bless you and your kids!!

Kenj and Nate said...

So Sweet...What an wonderful Daddy!!!

Mark and Jamie Elison said...

Jessica and Nate,
We recently heard the news. We are so sorry for your loss. Sweet little Noah could not have gone to a better family. How wonderful of you to make his gown, something to always cherish. We are so impressed by your faith and strength. I hope this is not okay on a blog but I remember when we had our first miscarriage someone let me know that the sun will come out tomorrow. And eventually it did come out again. You will be in our thoughts and prayers.
Love, Mark and Jamie

Bethany said...

What. A. Man.


WILD amounts of admiration and respect coming your way.

Britni Watkins said...

Such a sweet story. You and your family are in my prayers.

The Teeples said...

Oh Wow! Your and Nate' strength through all of this is so characteristic of the two of you. Our thoughts and prayers are with you both. Thanks for being so open and willing to share your journey.

We love you,
The teeples :)

Jason, Kodi and Jake said...

Jessica, I have looked at your blog every once in a while, but I have never said anything. I just want to let you know that your strength is an amazing example to me. I keep looking at the pictures of your sweet husband at the sewing machine, and the beautiful gown he made for your son, and i can't stop bawling about it! You are a lucky girl to have such a sweet husband and daddy! Thank you for strengthening me today. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
kodi (steele)