Nate has been in Honduras for 2 weeks. I can hardly wait for him to come home this weekend. The first week he was gone seemed to crawl, but this last week has passed quickly. I think it's because we have been busy since it was the last week of school for Jansen. You get used to doing everything on your own, but I have had some real rough days. Days that have tried my patience like I couldn't believe. But I have a small sense of accomplishment...holding down the fort on my own and never completely losing it. It always feels good to do hard things and to know that you actually benefited from the struggle.
Nate and I both agree that short separations like these are actually for good our marriage as well. We appreciate one another so much more and communicate in ways that are different from our usual day to day interactions. It's a painful feeling to miss someone, but I've been so thankful that I have someone I miss that dearly. Know what I mean?
I have also felt strengthened as I have prayed a lot for patience and also peace at night time. I have spent plenty of nights alone, and I never seem to get used to it. I am often scared and don't sleep well. This time around I have made a real effort to replace my fears with faith. I have felt calm at night.
There will certainly be more separations in our future, but it's reassuring to know that these types of experiences ultimately benefit our family if I let them.