I really really hope this doesn't come out as a bunch of complaining. I just feel like if there is one place I can tell the good and bad of my life it's here. I am so tired! Natalie went to bed at 9:00 and then I was up with her at 12:30, 3:30, 4:30, and 6:00. Nate is always so happy to help with her, but sometimes there's just not much he can do if she's hungry. When Nate started working with her at the 6 wake up, I told him I was going to take her so I could feed her before Jansen woke up. And she had wet through her sleeper on that last one. Jansen also gave me a scare and woke up at 5:30 but thankfully went back to sleep. I feel like I have been so blessed though. I can usually get through the day feeling pretty good unless I sit and read to Jansen or when I am nursing Natalie. I often fall asleep nursing her and have found myself with my head touching hers and I am drooling on her hand. How embarrassing! Then there was the time the other night that Nate and I were praying together and I was praying out loud and fell asleep in the middle of a sentence. Oops.
Natalie still won't sleep on her own during the day for more than about 20 minutes. And getting her to sleep in the first place is crazy! Some of the things I have had to do lately: swaddle her and then give her the pacifier and then turn on the vibrating chair and bounce the chair. And she wakes up if I stop bouncing her. This morning I put her in the wrap and then faced her towards the computer and had her watch the visual effects while soft music played and I bounced back and forth. I only wish the deep knee bends still worked. They seem so simple and reliable now! But I know it will pass and she has this smile she does where she shrugs her shoulders and just grins and it makes me so happy. She always acts like she is just thrilled to see me and Nate and it is so sweet.